a letter to love

dear love,

why can't you make people let go of the past if it's not meant to be? why can't you make people realize that the best way to love someone is to let go? why are you so selfish yet people see you as the reason for being so selfless?

i felt you for someone and i was happy, we were happy... then, the next moment i know you were gone and everything changed. he and i am practically strangers to each other again, taking separate directions. i went on with my life and i'm doing very well, i am very busy with the things i love to do. i learned to live without him, indeed. i'm okay, i went back to the normal. i was so busy with my life that i never thought it isn't over yet... isn't over, for him, i guess. treating him as a plain acquaintance is the way to let go of the baggage. everything changed, at least for the two of us, from strangers to friends, more-than-friends and back to being a nobody to each other again. it looks like it isn't over him to get over what happened to us. i guess it's true that people don't know what they've got until its gone. i myself, know it is gone, but that was it. the fact that i wanted my life without him shows that i would never take him back if it's already very impossible. i never close my heart to any guy, except FOR THE TIMES WHEN IT'S THE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT DICTATES THAT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE AND IT CANNOT BE. before, after what happened, i still had hope that someday, if we both had the chance, we maybe would pick where we left off. but no... now, it's not possible anymore, and i'm not going to make a mistake, when it comes to him. i had my chance with him, it didn't work out at that time, that's why i've given him the chance to be with someone else. i actually did him a favor, to be with the one who would feel you for him the same way he does. but why is he ruining my life again? the fact that he asks me out again, despite that it is not possible, only means that he doesn't respect me. if he still feels you for me, THEN HE SHOULD LET ME GO AND SET ME FREE. i would really appreciate it if he were just to leave me alone and just live his life and do his thing. i don't want to be the reason for any break-ups and failed relationships.

please touch him and make him realize that... IT REALLY CAN'T BE and I WON'T BE MAKING IT HAPPEN AGAIN...